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Friday, December 7th, 2007
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...because of finals! Eeek!;;;
Saturday, Tuesday, Wednesday for me. That means I get 25 days of winter vacation...luckylucky me vv
I hate that I study the best the night before. I don't get too pressured until the early morning the day of the test....and hopefully (usually) calm down by the time the test comes.
One at a time. One at a time. I can do this. =)
Oh btw, the other day I did something I can't believe I did. I used "monkey" on my calc test... (if you were in mcmillen's, you understand..)
I wonder what my TA thought. XD
Anyways, i'll probably post something around this time next week (unless I forget). Updates, updates!
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Monday, December 3rd, 2007
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I'm sure everyone in the area's experiencing it.
I'm cold and sick and wet and miserable.
I like the rain, but not when it's coming down in buckets on me.
I woke up this morning at 6am. Stared at the ceiling until 6:20. Then changed, went downstairs, ate, took as many vitamins as I could that wouldn't harm my health, drank tea, took a handful of cough drops and ran out the door at 7am. It normally takes 15 minutes to go down the hill from my house to the train station, but today it took 50. Since I missed not only the train I always take, but I missed the last train as well, I waited 20 minutes for the next bus to downtown seattle. Via I-5..... ran two blocks to University Street Station, jumped on the 73, and got to school 10 minutes late for my 9:30 lecture. I think that adds up to a little over 2 and a half hours? Long commute....
It sucks that I got sick right in time for finals. I normally don't take cold medicine, but I should now, more than ever...
Stay healthy, guys.
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Friday, November 16th, 2007
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Actually, the title of this journal isn't really significant. It's just what the air smelled like on the way to school this morning. =)
Yaaaay, no more midterms this quarter! I feel so relieved.
I registered for classes yesterday morning, but according to my parents I need 3 more credits (to add it up to 18. They want their money's worth). So far, my winter '08 schedule is as follows:
JAPAN 472 A CLSCL JAPAN GRAMMAR
MATH 126 B CALC ANYL GEOM III
MATH 126 BD CALC ANYL GEOM III
CSE 143 A COMPUTER PRGRMNG II
CSE 143 AK COMPUTER PRGRMNG II
That's 15 credits right there.
Since i'm commuting, and these aren't the easiest courses (well, from a freshman's perspective), I would prefer to stay at 15...but we'll see how that ends up.
...off to class!
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Thursday, November 15th, 2007
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...one more midterm. One. More.
SCREW YOU, CALCULUS!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need a hug....someone come find me on Friday...*call me*
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Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
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Talk about irony.
He broke up with me this morning. I didn't bring it up; he did.
He said that he saw me in my sad times, in my happy times, in my angry times, in my troubled times...
and he thought I had a split personality (which is where the psychiatrist thing comes in),
and didn't know which was the real me, and became worried...scared....whatever it was,
and was tired of that, so he wanted to end it.
...I'm relieved that I wasn't the one who had to bring it up, since I wouldn't have an internal conflict about whether or not I did the right thing...but I did care about him a lot, and it's sad that I worked so hard to keep the relationship together, but he never really tried a whole lot. And so he left me.
I feel sad and empty. I just wish someone would point out my faults, but learn to accept them as a part of me. I haven't had that happen. I feel like I'm not good enough, like I'm just one big emotional wreck, that I take out my troubles on others, and that because of it, every other relationship I'm going to have is going to end up the same way. Is my personality that horrid, and I'm just too stubborn to notice? Or are all the good guys just somewhere way far away from me?
I need company...
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Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
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I thought you called it "midterms" when you had an exam in the middle of the term. Not multiple. Apparently not, because I have two next week, had one last week, and one the week before last. That makes FOUR. And I only have three lecture classes. Well, I suppose it's better than having them all squished in one week, and having to scramble to study for all at once. But then of course we'll be having finals in about a month, and the next upcoming holiday is.....Veteran's day? Eh, I suppose that counts. I should give a certain someone a birthday call....*wink*.
Nothing much else happening in my life. Commuting, homework, classes, lack of sleep, and a tad bit of relationship drama. Basically, I'm thinking that I should seriously look for someone a little closer to my age group. For many, many reasons. Just someone different, I guess... If you were to point out one problem with his personality, it would be his lack of understanding. I try to explain how I'm busy, or how stressed I am with schoolwork, or how I need more affection, and he gets mad at me, pointing out all of my faults. Hey, I could tell him a lot to his face, but I don't. Just that I feel lonely because all he wants from me are friend-to-friend type conversations. If I ever try to call his name, tell him I miss him, even try to tell him I love him, he backs away, scolding me, telling me I'm wanting to much from him and that he can't give that to me. How, then, would this situation be different from a typical friendship? He doesn't want me to be his girlfriend, he wants me to be his talking partner. Because he's a 39 year old bachelor who does nothing but go to work, come back, go on the internet and-- oh wait, sometimes he even goes fishing. *shrugs*
Why did I choose him in the first place? I frankly don't remember. Back when I first met him, he could have conversations without planning ahead of time exactly what to say. He didn't say that I needed to go to a psychiatrist because I have psychological issues (i'm just overly emotional. I understand that's a problem, but I SURE know it's not something that I need to take care of by spending money on a psychiatrist). He enjoyed talking to me because I was ME, not because I had anything good to say. Now, I have to come up with an abundance of things to talk about, otherwise he'll get bored and threaten to hang up. Or, if I'm darn near close to having an ulcer because my calc homework is due the next day and I just got my midterm back as a 2.7, I can't even state my worries to him because he'll say i'm being "negative". So I put on a fake smile, produce a fabricated laugh, and he doesn't seem to have a problem. That is, until he figures out it's fake, then he criticizes me for "not being true to myself". WTF!? I 'be myself', and he's not satisfied. I put up a facade so he won't notice i'm depressed, and he's not satisfied. No matter what he says, "I (you) just don't understand". WHY in the world am I working so hard to keep this relationship together? When he first told me he cared about me, he was crying at the thought of me rejecting him. So now he turns the tables on me, since he figures I'm all over him? No. Freaking. Way.
Ok, maybe I'm the type that puts my all into a relationship. I do my work, study, whatnot....but I'm dedicated. If I care about a person, I'm not going to take lightly the fact that I'm fortunate enough to have met him/her. I don't bend my morals, but I know when not to be stubborn. Give and take, right? If I have a personality problem, I'll fix it not for that person's sake, but for my own sake, because I know it'll affect my friendships with other people as well. Am I doing the wrong thing? Am I overanalyzing? What in the world should I do? I'm starting to agree with other people, that I should break up with him... after all, it's not fun at all being critiqued every morning at 5am (oh yes, btw, I wake up at 4am~5am to talk to him because of the time difference; for him it's 9pm, and he doesn't even take home work...and yet he claims he does more for me). I'm just sick of this all. Even my own father doesn't critique me like this. I need someone who will actually care about me.....
...now that I let that out, my sanity should last for at least another 19 hours...
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Tuesday, October 30th, 2007
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Aw, I miss those days when I was smaller and could look forward to Halloween without worrying much about homework...
Anyway, I've been pretty much busy with homework and commute, doing nothing much else. This past weekend I wanted to work on my comp sci, but my parents were flying in and out of state so I had to be their chauffeur. Of course, I had to take care of the kids Saturday night, as a result. You'd think that since there's three of them, and the youngest is starting high school next year, they could take care of themselves.
No chance.
Ugh... mountains (really, you should have seen them) of laundry, dishes, dust and dog hair all over the floor, and all they do is eat and go back upstairs on the computer, TV, what have you.
Luckily my ONE responsible sister made dinner and set the table while I had to drive to Bellevue to pick up my other sister at school. But that girl....the youngest....man, I didn't realize how spoiled she really was. As soon as I pick her up from school, she says "I want a caramel frapp! Mom always gets me one! I can't do my homework without it!!!"
....*forehead smack*
Oh yes, and of course you need to have a $4 drink every time you do homework. Uh-huh.
But since I couldn't take her home unless all her homework was done, I had to stay with her at Crossroads until she finished. And since she wouldn't work on it otherwise and I couldn't yell at her in public (and talking to her wouldn't help) I had to get her one.
Then she complains she's tired and wants to go home. Understandable, but I had been driving for just around 3~4 hours that day, back and forth, I was in no mood to listen to her complain.
...well, enough talk about that...
I've established Mondays and Tuesdays as my finish-the-homework-that-you-attempted-to-start-over-the-weekend-but-couldn't-because-you-had-to-take-care-of-your-irresponsible-younger-siblings-who-have-the-time-to-watch-tv-but-no-time-to-do-the-chores day. :3
Why do my parents let them get away with it?
I can't just let the house go to shambles. Or build up with dust.
So those are my all-nighter days. Monday, Tuesday.
Wednesday afternoons are awesome.
Midterms are troublesome.
Halloween in the middle of the week is troublesome.
TAs spending too much time helping a single person are....annoying. (There should be a 5-minute-per-student rule)
mmkay, rant done. I need to finish my comp sci before it's due in 6 hours <3
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Thursday, October 25th, 2007
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...I've realized that though I haven't been updating my LJ in a freakishly long time, the URL is still the best to type out. "livejournal.com". If that makes sense. It just....well.....flows. I like it. I should post more.
Wow, two years. I've been away that long? I'm not going to fill in anything that happened in my life between then and now... I can't remember anything worth writing anyway that hasn't been written by friends. I suppose college would be a good chance to restart my LJ. Update. Since I don't really like posting on non-blog sites...not sure why. Just don't. I check my myspace once every two weeks, and my facebook almost everyday... I just don't...write....anything (Hey, I'm not very good at writing anyway. That's why i'm in comp sci).
So I guess it's been roughly a month since I started at UW. I'm kind of surprised at how smoothly the transition went. It doesn't really intimidate me; at least not yet. Large classes, bah...I'm more of a figure-on-what's-going-on-by-myself person anyway. I'm probably sane only because I haven't taken a single english class yet. No reading, no essays. Just math, and programming. Which are beasts, yes, but at least I get definitive answers. That's why I love it so much (and I just realized that the average number of words I use in sentences nowadays are....somewhere around 7 *fails*).
Oh, and of course I have a Japanese class too. Yeah it's a 400-level class, but imagine being in another country and taking a 400-level english class. It's not that hard, you just have to memorize a motherload of grammar and exceptions that the average American (or other english-speaking country-citizen) would never know, remember, or care about.
I guess today's the first day where we actually read something (Houjouki, a some-thousand-year old text). I just wish that I would've woken up early, so I could've actually printed out the text and translation *fails again*.
Well, I'll be going to class soon. Hope I can post a longer update later.
Thank you all who hadn't deleted my account from your friendslist while I was away x__x
-Mari
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Saturday, September 1st, 2007
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Yes, still alive. XD I'll post something more interesting later. I'm thinking of reviving this blog... maybe after I do some yardwork. :)
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Thursday, August 31st, 2006
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i've left my LJ for roughly six months, as you can see.
yes, it WAS because i forgot about it.
it wasn't that i was busy, but.....oh, i don't know.
so what has happened in that time? i don't think i have to elaborate, you guys probably know anyways. nothing that big, except for the AP tests and the SAT...
well, all is well, probably.
the syllabus bugs me though. everyone in lequire's ap class is thinking the same way.
....i got my ears pierced.....?
but you all know that too.
wow, i really don't have anything to say. :)
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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
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| Time: | 9:48 am. |
| Mood: |  happy. |
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hey guys, sorry for the late update.
this is my second day in new york.... can someone post what the homework is....? kate preferrably..... thank you sooooooo much <3
btw, when's the game against ferndale? if somebody could tell me about that that would be great too.
i may update tomorrow.... today is shopping day~v (yes!!)
see you guys next week!
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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
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Sorry i haven't updated.....just too busy.
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Yesterday marks a (hopefully temporary)end to my bf/gf relationship with Midori.
It ended on a good note, which was good.
But i cried, which was bad. I tried not too, but heck, when the tears come, they come.
I know he still cares dearly for me(yes, he still loves me)and so i wish this works out.
Sorry and thank you for all suggestions, comments, and especially, hugs.
I know many are going to argue my opinion, but i really am going to wait.
All i wish for you, my friends, to do is to pray for me.
Pray for me that i may learn patience and fortitude from this "test", and that Midori gets it through his thick head that he's going for the wrong girl.(lol)
This is how much he means to me.
Then again, i can always call him up whenever i want. XD
That's kinda comforting....
well, i might as well do this; i'm done with Hunter's work.
( ) Slept all night in a bed with a person of the opposite sex
(x) Slept all night in a bed with a person of the same sex
(x) Slept for more than 12 hours
(x) Missed a week of school or more
( ) Put chapstick on more than 5 times in an hour
( ) Kissed more than one person in a day
( ) Kissed more than two people in a day
( ) Created a myspace survey
( ) Eaten a worm
(x) Jumped on a trampoline
(x) Ridden a unicycle
(x) Done something special for someone else
( ) Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurat
( ) Paid more than $50 for food at a fast food resturant
(x) Got caught for cheating on a test
( ) Talked on the phone while going to the bathroom
(x) Brushed your teeth while on the phone
( ) Worked in fast food
(x) Written a poem
( ) Randomly called people out of a phone book
( ) Been on a yacht
( ) Own a yacht
( ) Been called egotistical
( ) Put bananas in your cheerios
(x) Lied to a friend to make them feel better
(x) Dated someone 2 years or more older than you
(x) Eaten frosting out of the original container
(x) Had a dream about a myspace friend
(x) Fallen in public
(x) Had your pants rip
(x) Recently had a PB&J sandwich
( ) Met your principals parents
(x) Killed an animal
( ) Been prescribed to 3 or more medications by a doctor
(x) Wished you were an only child
( ) Used your friends razor with out them knowing?
(x) Been unproud of a decision you made
( ) Worked for a family member
(x) Been told you were too young
(x) Made out in a car
( ) Screamed a vulger or profane word in a crowd of people you didnt know
( ) Kissed a friend, then their best friend
( ) Been to a concert.
(x) Gotten away with a lie to your parents
( ) Been dumped the night of a dance and left with out a date
(x) Been cheated on
( ) Gone out with a person one of your parents set you up with
( ) Hate to admit you are wrong
(x) Ridden on a shopping cart
( ) Danced in a Mini Mart
( ) Went into a mini mart in socks
(x) Been in a play
(x) Gone to church more than 2 times in a week.
( ) Copied more than 30 CD's in a day
( ) Made a movie
( ) Dressed "gothic"
( ) Been called "gothic"
(x) Worn 5 or more layers of clothing
(x) Had a stalker
(x) Swam in clear blue water
( ) Sat in a doctors office with a friend
( ) Ran across 6 lanes of traffic
(x) Made fish lips
( ) Hit on a waitress/waiter
(x) Taken pictures with a stranger
( ) Been to Busch Gardens
(x) Stayed in a hotel room with 3 other school mates
( ) Made a public speech
( ) Been on cable television
( ) Choreographed a dance
(x) FELT USED
(x) Made a smoothie or milkshake
(x) Had fun at work/school
( ) Watched Desperate Housewives
(x) Watched a movie so often you could quote every word. ..
( ) Listened to an old NSYNC or Backstreet Boys CD AFTER they were popular
(x) Kept something from a past relationship
(x) Given someone else flowers
(x) taken a foreign language
(x) Gotten to school at 6:15 in the morning
( ) Not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class
(x) Laughed for no apparent reason
(x) Wanted to meet someone you met online in person
(x) Gotten in a fight
( ) Gone skinny dipping
( )Went Skydiving
( )Been drunk (I can control my liquor sucka)
( )Gotten caught drunk by your parents
( ) Been high
( )Gotten caught high by your parents
(x) Done something you weren't supposed to
( )Gotten caught doing stuff with your friend's bf/gf
( )Cussed at your parents (they didn't know what I said)
(x)Felt like smacking your best friend
(x)Cried watching a movie
(x)Cried listening to a song
(x)Cried reading a book
( )Passed out
( )Gotten a concussion
(x)Failed a test
( )Failed a class
(x)Told someone you love them
(x)Told someone you hate them
( )Gave a random person your phone number
( )Told someone they were ugly (Billy Stone!! hahah as a joke)
(x)Broken up with someone
(x)Been on a boat
(x)Gone tubing
(x)Been to California
(x)Been to Florida
(x)Been to Maryland
(x)Seen a penguin
( )Dumped someone for no reason
( )Told someone you were gay
( )Been told you were gay
(x) Ran away
(x)Hung out with someone you weren't supposed to
( )Ditched someone
(x)Been ditched
( )Gotten plastic surgery
( ) Stuffed your bra (hahah funny situation)
( )Put your shoes on backwards
( )Put your pants on backwards
(x) Forgot to cut off your tag
(x)Gotten in the hot tub naked in the middle of winter
( )Been skiing (snowboarding is better)
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Friday, October 7th, 2005
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Religion essay....FINISHED! *shaking fist high above head in victory*
aaaand..... it's 12:23! yay <3
now that all i have left is the history test (which i'll study for tomorrow), i must tell you all that i got an aim account..... talk to me tomorrow and i'll tell it to ya.
much love (especially to all the busy ppl),
mariko
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Thursday, September 29th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:01 pm. |
| Mood: |  annoyed. | | Music: | CHEMISTRY:"Let's Get Together Now". |
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The Catcher in the Rye is the stupidest and most pointless book i've read in years.
*throws a chair at J.D. Salinger*
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I'm sorry, i just really hate it.
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Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
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Updating time! *tinggggg...*
I'm currently in the middle of trying to find a first sentence to write for my religion essay for Duke...... i'll figure my way out of it...(<-procrastinator...)
Some lovely news, and some maybe-not-so-lovely news.
Lovely news #1:
First drive was today! For not having sat in the driver's seat EVER, i figured i did a nice job. and my instructor seemed to think so also, because he said that for a complete beginner, i didn't freak out.
All is well and i hope i improve.... and i need my permit NOW!
Lovely news #2:
This is actually half-and-half.... bad part is that mido's leaving tomorrow instead of friday... :(
Good news is he's back to normal! i think he was kinda psyched out because of how busy he was, and he wasn't acting like his normal self. i guess he passed that line because he's back to his normal self. Which calms me down. Best of luck to him and to all college freshmen! *hugs mido*
Lovely news #3:
i finally installed MSN Messenger 7.0 (w/o my father's consent; he's at work).
great for me, because it widens the variety of things i can do. i just hope my dad doesn't yell at me for d/l something w/o telling him..... he's kinda got this thing against that. Then again, the "new version of msn messenger available" thing that kept popping up everytime i signed on was getting annoying also.
Lovely news #4:
My birthday is in 13 days <3
By the way my locker number is A339 and it's in the 2nd floor A wing hallway. Hahaha ignore that, but i'm just happy that i'm turning 17 soon!
Maybe-not-so-lovely-news #1:
Not going to homecoming.
Sorry if i'm letting you guys down, but Mido's busy and i would LOVE to go with you guys, but i think i'll be a little busy..... if i had gotten ready at the beginning of this month it might have been better, but since it's within two weeks.....
Have GREAT FUN without me though! don't worry, i'll try to make it to homecoming senior year. and maybe i'll be princess that year, who knows? that would be kinda fun, having attention like that for once. Just for once. I want to have the spotlight once in my life you know <3
Mabye-not-so-lovely-news #2:
still not done with religion essay and drivers ed homework.....must run!
~Mari~
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Friday, September 16th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:33 pm. |
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This is just to tell everyone that i'm still alive :)
i haven't updated in forever, but, as everyone else is, i am busy also.
today is septmeber 16th..... so it's a friday.
as always, i got home from school, changed, did homework, ate dinner, did more homework, and now i am online typing this and waiting for certain people on msn messenger.
well, spirit week has come and gone, and it wasn't very "special"....
seeing everyone else wear absurd clothes was rather interesting and pleasant for me, but as is the case with my livejournal, i see others and refuse to do stuff myself.
laziness is hard to fix...
but anyways, here's a look back at what we did this week (just to prove to myself it was almost precious time spent for nothing...)
monday: maui day.
-->cold weather, cloudy skies, bared skin. i like hibiscus, but this week was not the time to do it.
tueday: Mass of the Holy Spirit
-->wore black turtleneck and pink vintage(?)-looking skirt. i figured i had learned the hard way from the coldness of the autumn winds, and yet this was the warmest day of the week. i think.
-->sat in the back row w/Kate. i really miss choir.... i was just about ready to jump into the group and start singing. Gosh, i love singing....
wednesday: western/puyallup fair day
-->couldn't go to the fair, but i heard it wasn't that good anywho...
-->wore kinda-western-looking stuff....best i could come up with. i think people stole my hat about 4-5 times that day...
thurday: 50s 60s 70s 80s day
-->parents had thrown away all 70s clothes.... i was tired of spirit week by this time so i didn't really care anyway. it's fun enough watching all of the people decked out.
friday: gender war
-->i figured since i had so many white clothes i may as well wear them.
-->i agree with the guys. that jeopardy was rigged. But if we get ice cream or w/e, i don't really care.
so. another week passes by, and we find ourselves already half-way into september.
time passes by so quickly... i wish i could buy time for my birthday.
time to lay on the couch and nap for once; time to be bored enough to hear the sounds of nature (including the neighbor's barking dog XD ); time to call my friends, especially those who go to other schools; time to catch up with the pictures i owe people for commissions, time to sing along to the songs i love; time to watch a movie; time to go buy something for myself; time to take an actual BATH instead of a SHOWER for the first time in about 2 to 3 years, where i can stretch out in the tub; time to make dinner for my family; time to see my boyfriend one last time before he moves away; time to buy and give a single flower to each of my friends to thank them for all they've done for me........
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it is sad that because time is limited, one must limit what one yearns to do... and that is why often people miss the chance of saying "i love you" to those they care about most...
i want to live my life telling people that i love them, so that i will never look back on my past, wishing i could have told them that when i really meant it...
i'm not wasting my chances, and i want to present a smile to those who need it.
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to all who support me in any way, shape or form (that includes you <3 ), thank you.
i appreciate you, and whether i talk to you a lot or not, if you were to disappear from my life, it would devastate me.
thank you.
p.s.: happy birthday anna <3
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Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
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Thursday, August 4th, 2005
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pirika's journal
nervous.
Sick and miserable.
relieved.
depressed.
hungry.
cold.
dead tired.
sick but still cheerful.
frustrated.